The How...somewhat.

When people ask me, "So what happened?", "What did you do?" I could easily put my Christian hat on and say, "Just by the blood of the Lamb, the Lord has heard my cry and prayer." That's actually how I wanted it to happen to testify that God can just do it (which He can)! To me, however, everything that happens via answered prayer is through the Lord hearing my cry and granting me my hearts desire.

In this case, I believe I had to take a step of faith but an interesting one nonetheless. I was told about a spa service in Korean Bath Houses called a Korean Hip Bath. Including the link so you can do the research about it yourself. Unfortunately, this spa that I heard about is in Atlanta, GA. A ticket just to go out there is about $300, about $12,000 less than IVF (which was the next step the doctors had me saving my money for). But in all the research, Doctor's visits, and money spent I did not obsess over it.

I ended up having to fly out to Atlanta for work and met up for dinner with the sister of a friend that originally told me about this information. By the end of the conversation, while meeting her beautiful baby boy, we talked about, "my issue". She reminded me, no volunteered, to run me over by this spa. WHAT?!?!? This whole week I've been hanging out in Atlanta and not once thought about this thing. Long story short, and $50 later ($14,550 less than IVF) I do it. I come home, birds and bees convo, and I'm pregnant.

Turns out this spa treatment helps clean out the womb with the benefits of shrinking fibroids that I did not know I had. Once pregnant, they said I have 4 fibroids and it's amazing that I got pregnant. So there, an all expense trip paid for and a spa service that I was hoping for and almost forgot about. Thank you Jesus.

Funny story: there were 4 seats and the lady decides to sit someone right next to me just like the picture above. Somewhat awkward but whateves.

I tell people this story of, "the how" but I caveat with, this is my testimony, this is the how for me. God may have a different testimony for you so continue to trust in Him. If you try this, don't consider it the guarantee, don't think that this is the final straw either. God has done it through may different avenues, don't limit Him and what He will do for you.

To my fellow future mothers

To my fellow future mothers,

I know how you feel already….

Another pregnancy announcement yes. I know those emotions. It’s like a fierce cycle whirling around in your brain that navigates down to your heart and aims straight for your belly. The emotion of rejection, of feeling left behind, of feeling empty. Maybe it’s coupled with aunt Flo that seems to laugh at you while saying, “You have to wait even longer.” You know those feelings, I know those feelings and I’m sorry.

Every time I saw the good news of others, I got genuinely happy and excited for them. It reminds me of the movie Toy Story were the little toys were chosen in the vending machine and everyone was excited for that toy but yet wanted to be that toy, the next chosen one. Yes, you may start questioning yourself and what you did wrong that month and what you could try again this month or the next.

 I…totally…get…it.

I purposefully waited to announce this publicly just for you. Because as excited as I was to find out the good news, I thought about you. I thought about preparing myself to introduce this news and my address to those that have felt the way I have. Maybe I’m not relating to you while you read, but for those who are let me TELL you this: there is nothing wrong with you.

You are beautifully and wonderfully made. You were knit in your mother’s womb. Your past does not define who you are today and you are not being punished for your yesterdays. You are being molded and stretched, refined and redesigned. This is what strengthens you, this time of wait. Oh the beauty it will be when you find out about the gift that stirs within you but until then you are that beauty manifested. I applaud you beautiful woman, I admire you and I am inspired by you.

As far as Daniel and I, we are happy. We are going to have a baby. An answered prayer, a payoff for all the tears, a reward for the wait, a gift from almighty God.

The announcement.