To my fellow future mothers

To my fellow future mothers,

I know how you feel already….

Another pregnancy announcement yes. I know those emotions. It’s like a fierce cycle whirling around in your brain that navigates down to your heart and aims straight for your belly. The emotion of rejection, of feeling left behind, of feeling empty. Maybe it’s coupled with aunt Flo that seems to laugh at you while saying, “You have to wait even longer.” You know those feelings, I know those feelings and I’m sorry.

Every time I saw the good news of others, I got genuinely happy and excited for them. It reminds me of the movie Toy Story were the little toys were chosen in the vending machine and everyone was excited for that toy but yet wanted to be that toy, the next chosen one. Yes, you may start questioning yourself and what you did wrong that month and what you could try again this month or the next.

 I…totally…get…it.

I purposefully waited to announce this publicly just for you. Because as excited as I was to find out the good news, I thought about you. I thought about preparing myself to introduce this news and my address to those that have felt the way I have. Maybe I’m not relating to you while you read, but for those who are let me TELL you this: there is nothing wrong with you.

You are beautifully and wonderfully made. You were knit in your mother’s womb. Your past does not define who you are today and you are not being punished for your yesterdays. You are being molded and stretched, refined and redesigned. This is what strengthens you, this time of wait. Oh the beauty it will be when you find out about the gift that stirs within you but until then you are that beauty manifested. I applaud you beautiful woman, I admire you and I am inspired by you.

As far as Daniel and I, we are happy. We are going to have a baby. An answered prayer, a payoff for all the tears, a reward for the wait, a gift from almighty God.

The announcement.